Bubbles

She was tired.Tired from not doing anything.Tired staring fixedly at her cellphone,waiting for a message.Why aren't any of my friends free today!! It frustrated her. It was partly her mistake .she made excuses of having to study,or of her bad moods,of her painful stomach.She realized it was herself,she was frustrated with.

Her digital watch beeped.It was 6 'o clock .Her boredom reached the 5 hour mark.She pulled on a jacket and grabbed some money.She knew just what she wanted to do,she had been wanting to do it since a week.Bubbles!:)She shook her boredom off and began to walk to food street.It's always a carnival here, balloons sellers,delicious food,and finally the person selling the soap mixture that produces bubbles:)

Happy with her little purchase,she set off to the huge water tank.she hurriedly climbed the winding staircase.She loved the peace and the view of the city from up here.Blowing bubbles into the vast skies,she felt her little frustrations depart slowly.The lines on her forehead reduced.She was beginning to feel happy.FINALLY!

What's your greatest fear?

She walked through the darkness,

The mushy soil,the syrupy atmosphere,

Pitch dark and perfectly silent..nonetheless,

she wore a smile and ambled on,with no fear.

She wasn't bothered by the journey,

After all,she had spent most of her life in the wilderness.

It was the door at the end she hated to see,

What lay behind it,tormented her mentally.

Whenever she reaches to open the door,

she turns back and runs as fast as her 7-year old feet can take her.

She had enough,she couldn't take anymore.

Every night she would walk till there,

Never opens the door,not even dare.

......frantically twisting in bed,

she woke up and screamed to herself"What is it that I really dread??!!"

Peering through dark glasses again....

This is more of a blog to myself.There are few things I've realized in the past week.

--The world revolves around money..It's so hard to decently earn money.

--There's none in this world and none who will..love you as much as your parents.Pure selfless love.Incomparable.Abosolutely.They ll do anything in the world for you.

--Guilt can drive you mad.can make you cry endlessly,you feel enclosed and suffocated,gasping for breath.It haunts you, every single hour.

--You might think you're a strong person.To get there..you need to break down.And believe you'll shatter into tiny pieces..fumbling to fix the pieces back.

--Sometimes people do things you hate.Friends betray you,lovers ditch you,your parents yell at you...but it's all good,everything has a reason.Just wear their shoes for once.Everyone in this world teaches you a lesson.

--Loneliness is an incurable disease.Pray to god,that you have someone to take care of you when you get old.

--Never underestimate anyone! Never...he'll just overtake you in the long run,and you'll keep mum.

--Life's never easy.. not a person has had it easy,even the richest people.When its your turn to slog,don't complain,you'll go nowhere.

--Close your eyes for just a meagre 2 minutes everyday and thank god.You're blessed in so many unobtrusive ways.

Change

Life's changed track,I'm walking a new lane,

It's one of those things you tell yourself won't happen for now,

and before you know it,it has happened and how?

Getting adjusted to it is hard,

convincing myself over and over again,I feel like a retard.

The transition time should pass,

My ambivalent state if mind will clear,

Till then,I'll be stoic,with nothing to cheer:(

Unfortunately time heals,

It cleans out the closet and reveals.

In person..

The 69-yr old's confident  stride past the many gathered in that now-seemingly confined space,commanded respect.My eyes followed that figure in awe,almost forgetting to applaud along with the crowd.The first experiment I've had with this author,'A Twist in the tale' was pleasant enough,to keep continuing...haven't stopped till today(though most of my peers have stopped reading his books,calling it repetitive,i certainly beg to differ!!)

       "Now that you have a new government,I appoint myself the transport minister.This is the first country where cars think the white line is supposed to pass through the middle",was his opening statement.The crowd laughed,mostly in agreement.I haven't payed attention to any one's talk( not even the best Professor) as much as i did for the next 60 minutes.Jeff(he doesn't like being called that,AT ALL!!!! :)) spoke about everything under the sun;his first time with the publishers';his intransigent stand on how "20-20 is non-sense";India;Indian writers...everything:)

            When he said,'My writing ability is God's gift',I couldn't agree with him more.What completely baffled me ,was that he's never had a 'Writer's block!'..NEVER(!!!!).WOW!!,I thought to myself!,certainly the biggest gift anyone could ask for.The excitement metamorphosed into anticipation to get an autographed copy of his latest novel"Paths of Glory'.A true celebrity(..to say!),he promised not to leave without signing each one of the books <>.After about 60minutes of crawling in that line,I came face-to-face with the man himself.The biggest grin drawn upon my face (WOW!!!).A small,insignificant 'thank you' of mine,got a booming reply ,'NO,THANK YOU:)'..and a smile drawn upon his face.That was the most amazing feeling.I was that excited little kid again,wanting to run back home to show the autographed book:).

          You can place Jeffrey Archer in that Pantheon of great storytellers,no doubt.I just hope,somewhere down the line,I can write stories half as entertaining as his:)

Complexities...

 Sometimes,I feel,humans' complex assortment of intense,deep emotions is a burden.Animals' lesser intellectual capacity,is a blessing in disguise.When angry,there is a sudden gush of powerful hormones in our brain.We have the urge to yell,scream till our lungs tear,get very violent,almost till the capacity to kill,the need to stop,the irritation,confusion.A clash of so many emotions.In great comparison,animals have a single reaction,even if its violence.

     When happy,we smile,dance,celebrate,rejoice for most often a sadistic pleasure(which certainly isn't affirmative).While dealing with the loss of a dear one,we feel pain,sadness,loneliness,guilt,remorse,dejection,anger and the the need to compose one's self and remain stoic.

This conflict of many feelings..almost seems to me like a burden.

           Animals and children are blessed,blessed with untangled emotions,uncluttered minds.We should learn from them,they are mono manics,obsessed with living life free and to the fullest....

Satellite communicaton ;)

.written in satellite communication class..6th semsubject!TCE...all about satellites and orbits:(...

42,164 miles away,

Driven into lonely space,

not keeping time of whether its the end of a solar day,

I'm here stuck in some mental orbit with an obtuse phase.

I wonder which eccentricity is being talked about,

The people in the orbit, i suppose.

There is an earth link,no doubt

But how long should i stay here??

I'm not sure about the other losses or path loss,

All that i know is that ,there is a complete memory pause.

Waiting for this hour to get over,

Desperately want my orbit to lower.

Finally its time to decelerate,

But my daily trips to this orbit will continue much to my dismay and hate.!!